Just a Thought

So, I see that no one comes on here anymore. It is almost a freeing feeling writing this with no readers. lol. Truthfully I don't even know why I came on here. But for the sake of randomness, I feel like I should continue.
I took some time for myself for a little bit. I moved out, I got a new job, I met new people, I went to a new church, and I feel like I started realizing what it is that I want for myself for the next month or so.
I feel like I was so caught up in planning my life out for the rest of my life, that I didn't know what to do about the little bumps and bruises that accurred down the way. I am getting better but still a work in progress.
I guess on more fun notes, my 20th birthday is on Tuesday the 19th. I am getting very excited. My mother is taking me on a cruise to the bahamas. We have designated that her nickname for the next week is "Bahama mama" and mine is "Bahama Baby". lol. I couldn't ask for a better Mom and a better Friend. She does both roles honorably. I hope that when I have my kids I can find the balance like my Mom has. And it is very funny how when you get older the Mom card gets used less and less and the friend card is more often around.
Well I have finals this week and I have a paper to write, but it was fun to do something that I haven't done in a very long time. To anyone who is reading this, I miss each and everyone of you guys. (:

A promise to myself...

I promise myself

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

God's Time

So lately I have been thinking about God's Time. I find myself always wanting to go go go, and I forget that i need to pray and recieve Gods answers...ON HIS TIME! When i started thinking about this, i started thinking about Zachariah and his wife Elizabeth, God sent Gabriel to send Zachariah a message that his wife, elizabeth (though she was averagly too old to concieve) would become pregnant and have a baby to be named John. Zachariah questioned this, how could an older man and an older women possibly concieve? (I LOVE GABRIELS RESPONSE!) Gabriel says back to him,

"I am Gabriel, the sentinel of God, sent especially to bring you this glad news. But because you won't believe me, you'll be unable to say a word until the day of your son's birth. Every word I've spoken to you will come true on time—God's time." -Luke 1:19-20

Gods time. the story goes on to Zachariah having to not say a thing until they were to name the baby John, and he follows Gods rule and gives him back his voice.

I find this all very convicting and very true. I love reading stories over again, I feel as if i get something new out of them all the time. The bible is full of million lessons and stories to learn from! God is AMAZING!

A Bad American

So, i got this email the other day, and i wanted to share it with you.

I Am Your Worst Nightmare. I am a BAD American. I am George Carlin.

I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some mid level governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican!

I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way!

I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American.

I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything.

I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, try to do it in English.

I think fireworks should be legal on the 4th of July.

I think that being a student doesn't give you any more enlightenment than working at Blockbuster. In fact, if your parents are footing the bill to put you through 4 years plus of college, you haven't begun to be enlightened.

I believe everyone has a right to pray to God when and where they want to.

My heroes are John Wayne, Babe Ruth, Roy Rogers, and whoever canceled Jerry Springer.

I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor.

I know wrestling is fake and I don't waste my time arguing about it.

I think global warming is a big lie. Where are all those experts now, when I'm freezing my butt off during these long winters and paying, paying, paying?

I've never owned a slave, or was a slave, I didn't wander forty years In the desert after getting chased out of Egypt . I haven't burned any witches or been persecuted by the Turks and neither have you! So, shut-the-heck-up already.

I want to know which church is it exactly where the Reverend Jesse Jackson practices, where he gets his money, and why he is always part of the problem and not the solution. Can I get an AMEN on that one?

I think the cops have every right to shoot you if you're running from them.

I also think they have the right to pull you over if you're breaking the law, regardless of what color you are.

And, no, I don't mind having my face shown on my drivers license. I think it's good.....and I'm proud that "God" is written on my money.

I think if you are too stupid to know how a ballot works, I don't want you deciding who should be running the most powerful nation in the world for the next four years.

I dislike those people standing in the intersections trying to sell me crap or trying to guilt me into making "donations" to their cause. These people should be targets.

I believe that it doesn't take a village to raise a child, it takes two parents.

And what the heck is going on with gas prices... again?

If this makes me a BAD American, then yes, I'm a BAD American.

We need our country back!

Liz's request.

Yesterday i got an interesting text message from liz. Her boyfriends really close friends are dealing with suicide, and she wanted to know if i knew any verses on the topic. I didn't so i went in search for some to share with her. As i was searching (biblegateway! amazing!) i came across this verse, and it was just so simply put, that even though it didn't do with suicide, well the first part did but the part im talking about didn't. I loved it. So i thought i'd share it with you:

Acts 16: 27-31

"27-28Startled from sleep, the jailer saw all the doors swinging loose on their hinges. Assuming that all the prisoners had escaped, he pulled out his sword and was about to do himself in, figuring he was as good as dead anyway, when Paul stopped him: "Don't do that! We're all still here! Nobody's run away!"

29-31The jailer got a torch and ran inside. Badly shaken, he collapsed in front of Paul and Silas. He led them out of the jail and asked, "Sirs, what do I have to do to be saved, to really live?" They said, "Put your entire trust in the Master Jesus. Then you'll live as you were meant to live—and everyone in your house included!"

"Put your ENTIRE trust in the Master Jesus"
It is easy for me to trust the Lord with easy everyday living things, but when things start getting tough i find that I need to fix my own problems before even praying to God about them. I cant do it alone, I need Him.

Cool

Brandy

I have been really busy this past month, and so i have kinda just been distant from everyone, but last night i got to go to coffee with Brandy, and it really made me realize how much i miss her, and how amazing she is. We got to talking about things, and there are so many qualities that I love about her, so i thought i would use the blog to share them. I think she is very straight forward, she will tell you what she thinks (HONESTLY) if you ask. I think that quality is needed because there are so many people that feel they need to sugar coat things, for me its refreshing to hear the TRUTH. secondly, it is hard to find people that have boyfriends, that can still be YOUR friend. You always end up feeling like the 3rd wheel or that they don't want to hang out with you, Brandy makes it a point that when you are hanging out with her it is just you and her. And I have never felt like a third wheel, or that she didn't want to be with me. I think that is hard to find. She really cares about all of her friends and wants to hang out with them. I just think she is amazing. She is a friend that i will have for a very long time. I LOVE HER! (:

Changes

Its funny to me how things change so fast, as cliche as it might sound, i feel like it was just yesterday when we went to CIY and I was asking Shannon Hill to sign off on getting myself a tattoo (not one of my finest moments for sure). In even the past 4 months i feel have been a time of change, not necessarily bad ones, but all the same it happens. I was listening to Hopper speak on Sunday, and I miss him, he is the BEST youth pastor i have ever known, and now going on to the Mission myspace and seeing how amazing he is doing at his new position it is just amazing how that change did so many good things. Its fun to see him up there talking, it really made me miss him. School started, and learning the responsibility of even something as simple as going to class has been hard for me. I guess it is just weird the difference 4 months can make. That is pretty much all I have to say. I hope everybody is doing great!